oh, hello

sometimes i think it'd be nice to be deaf. i'm very easily persuaded by peoples words. it's also very easy for just a few words to make or break my day. it'd be nice to just be deaf. no yelling. no nagging.... plus i like hands... so it'd be cool to talk with them. hands fascinate me. eyes being the first thing i notice about someone, hands are usually second. they tell a lot about someone. infact, i saw a person who i THOUGHT was a girl, until i saw their hands... very obvious man hands.......

yikes.

i can't wait to talk to God face to face... so creative...............

though all the same, i'm SO incredibly thankful for my hearing. i LOVE music, i love to sing, i love the sound of birds and thunderstorms and waves crashing wind blowing and the sound of my camera shutter...........

i need to stop stressing so much about my appearance. i've become incredibly unhappy with my appearance as of late. i miss my long hair... A LOT. i'd like to lose a few pounds. and i seriously hate how big my freakin chest is. i hope one day i have a husband who has a thing for them cause i could care less about them and would almost love to rid myself of them. hahaha.....

ANYWAYS..........





i came to the realization that a lot of my friends will be gone for the summer... Caroline, Raymond, Esther, and my friend Jacob is moving to Cali. a lot is changing around me this summer... i don't like it.