can't believe i never noticed my heart before.

have you ever loved the lyrics of a song so much you wanted them to be about you? or maybe not so much about you, but to apply to you in some way? well, that was how Mute Math's song Noticed was for me. i love the lyrics... i love the song... but for so long they didn't apply to me.
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Careful when you open
It's easy to be broken
In the strangest fashion
You start a chain reaction
When you look my way
Something's pounding away
And I wonder if I ever
felt this before

And all this time, oblivious
to what you make so obvious
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before

And you are reaching
Something that is beating
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
Over and again
Racing out of my skin
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
At least it was never until I noticed

you and your ways
Capture what I've misplaced
In the perfect fashion
Just watch my heart's reaction
This point of view
is nothing that I'm used to, but I
won't close my eyes
'Cause they're on to you

And all this time,
it was staring me blind
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before

And you are reaching
Something that is beating
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
Over and again
Racing out of my skin
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
At least it was never until I noticed

you

The only time I ever noticed my heart
Was when I noticed you, yeah
The only time I ever noticed my heart
Was when I noticed you, yeah
You, yeah, you, yeah!

And you are reaching
Something that is beating
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
Over and again
Racing out of my skin
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
'Till I noticed you, yeah
I noticed you, yeah
When I noticed you, yeah
You, yeah
When I noticed you, yeah
I noticed you, yeah
That's the only time I ever noticed my heart before

^_^

so who knew that a simple weekend away with an old friend would bring about so much. for what seemed like forever i was battling myself and God. trying to find my passion. my heart. and it was like once i finally gave up, and just noticed God and how... amazing?.... well words can't describe him... but it was then that HE showed me my heart. made what was so obvious even more obvious. the whole weekend i just relaxed and prayed and journaled and read and one night out of no where... it just made sense......

the Church.

my heart cries out for the Church. how broken and lost and confused and unbiblical it has become. it was like out of no where, it all dawned on me, and the puzzle pieces just seemed to fit.

so this is my passion... now what?