talking bird

i'll be gone the 1st through the 4th. sweet gravy it'll be nice to be away... except for one thing...

i'll see him soon... and it'll start all over again.

i suppose i really should get over him. i fear that i've made him up to be someone he's not. i fear that i'll hold on to a hope that he could be mine one day and miss out on someone better. i fear i'll never be able to let go......... how do i let him go? how do i get over this "crush?"

i'm tired, and disappointed in pretty much all of man-kind.

ok enough. i'm usually so optimistic... what's gotten into me lately? i'm just lonely and ready to get on with my life. i wish i hadn't crapped around for a good year or so and just focused. i could be doing something with my life by now! maybe it's that i feel that since no one really reads this, i can actually be completely open and not hide anything. just write down my heart.

it's not that i'm unhappy. i'm very happy! i just am impatient and lonely. i'm ready to find someone who i can love on and be jealous of and i'm ready to start living my life for God. i'm tired of dorking around wasting my breath on useless things. i'm coming to realize time is precious and quick. it seemed like life went so slow when i was a kid... now it's like i can't seem to keep up with it.

Oh, my talking bird
though you know so few words
they're on infinite repeat
like your brain can't keep up with your beak.

and you're kept in an open cage
so you're free to leave or stay.
sometimes you get confused
like there's a hint that I am trying to give you.

the longer you think, the less you know what to do.

it's hard to see your way out
when you live in a house in a house
cause you don't realize
that the windows were open the whole time.

But oh, my talking bird
Though your feathers are tattered and furled
I'll love you all your days
till the breath leaves your delicate frame.

It's all here for you as long as your choose to stay.
It's all here for you as long as you don't fly away.
~ Talking Bird by Death Cab for Cutie