humble omelette

i went to breakfast with Brandon today and shared with him one of my biggest frustrations with a friend of mine. i appreciate so much his boldness... i need that in my life. it's not often you find someone like that who isn't scared to be bold and call you out on stuff. long story short, he called me out... the thing is... is i know this... i know that it's my problem, not that person's. i know that i can't get over it. i know that i'm holding onto this frustration for some reason, but why? why does it bother me so much? maybe it's because i've yet to forgive her in my heart. it's just sucky when you can't even remember all the crap that's happened. i feel like i'm 6 yrs old again fighting with one of my siblings to the point of forgetting the original root to the problem.

next thought...

as i've been reading for my Bible Study Methods class, we've been digging into some scripture that is often misinterpreted. one of those was the passage (1 corinthians 11:7-10) that talks about how women, out of respect for God and their husbands, should wear head coverings. long story short, that's not what the passage is talking about, it's talking about "wearing" authority on her head... meaning... God is over man, man was made for the glory of God, and women were made for the glory of man. but where we get the whole head coverings thing, i'm lost. like the book was saying, the passage doesn't really say what "it" is... it just says that it = authority... not a cloth-like thing. anyways... this all got me thinking about how amazing it is that God made me for man. that when things work the way they are supposed to, it's a beautiful relationship. this then led me to think, what am i doing that would be destructive to a healthy relationship? how am i living, what am i doing, what do i represent, how do i come accross to people... etc... that may be destructive and dishonoring (ulitmately) to God and my future husband?

i guess one of those things is my stuborness and just how i won't let go of things sometimes. i hold onto them like i need them... when in reality i'd give just about anything to rid myself of that stress.

right, so... i guess i'll just eat that humble omelette now and shut up and let go.