Talitha Koum

my mom and i sat down tonight and worked out a budget for me... I'm surprised to see that it's actually do-able. but despite how do-able it is, it's not logical. you see, if were to move out, all that money is just being spent and blown away when i have NO real solid reason for moving out yet. but if i save it, wow... I'll have a good chunk of change put away for when i actually am finished with school and do move out.

I've figured out when it is that i get annoyed with my parents... it just hit me today... it's when i know i need/want to talk to them about something, but i haven't processed through my thoughts enough yet to talk. but then add on being tired and it's just an awful combo. though i really get annoyed with most anyone when I'm tired........

so i witnessed to a group of high school kids today. to sum it up, i really saw how people just do NOT think through things and how stuff contradicts. i was in Barnes and Noble today picking up a couple books and a day-timer when i saw a group of high school (stereo-typical goth types) kids walk by. as they did, that voice yelled out at me again... like it did yesterday. so i began praying, "God, if you want me to talk to them, you have to speak through me. i don't know these kids, and for all i know they will probably laugh at me... so give me the words and wisdom to speak truth into their hearts." so as i stood and lingered around trying to think of what to say, the one thing that came to mind over and over was just to simply ask them if they had ever thought about where everything came from... so i did. after i practically puked from nervousness, i went up and asked. i just told them it's something i often think about and i like asking people of all kinds and types what they think. one kid told me he was agnostic, with a mix of evolution and Christianity (everything in me wanted to be like, wow... way to contradict yourself 3 times buddy... but i figured that would probably not win them over hahaha...). i asked him how he did that. he told me that he thinks Adam and Eve were the first real formed humans after apes. so i asked him then where the apes came from, he said fish.
me - where did the fish come from?
him - amoebas
me - where did they come from?
him - germs/molecules?
me - and them?
him - God?
me - yeah... i mean, if that is the case, then they had to start from something. something can't come from nothing... there had to be an ultimate creator...

so then the 2 lesbians said they had never thought about it before. then the other dude said he mixed evolution, Christianity, and Buddhism. and i totally lost him in the midst of his explanation of that....... he made no sense. then the other girl (not one of the lesbians) chimed in saying something about faith... but her explanation of faith was it was more of a type of moral support. something to give us hope. so after that, i could tell they were done... it wasn't that they were annoyed, in fact, they were quite nice to me. but i knew they were done talking about it.

just planting seeds i suppose.

time for bed... actually time to read my bible and put stuff in my new day-timerthingymabobber...



oh and go read Mark 5 to see where i got the title of this post from. one day, i'll have it tattoo'd on me somewhere for sure.