i'm so over this stage of my life... i'm ready to be done with cpcc and out of my parents house. i'm honestly ready to start becoming an adult. i still feel like my parents look at me like i'm 17... at least that's how old i feel when i'm talking to them. anyways... i'm just venting because i'm tired of living at home and i want my tattoo and the freedom to do what i want and not worry if they agree or not. it's hard when you have different convictions than your parents.
i hate not having answers for my friends who ask the hard questions. i hate not knowing the bible as well as i need to. i hate that people make "religion" as complicated and difficult as it is. i hate not having the words to express the passion i have in my heart about God. i hate that good people die and go to hell and bad people go to heaven. i try so hard to make all this make sense to the agnostics, athiests, non-believers. i try to make it real and genuine and break that nasty pre-conceived idea of who christians are. i honestly hesitate telling people i'm a Christian sometimes because i know what they're going to think of me. it's not that i care about what they think of me... it's that it bothers me that that is what they think Christians are like. i hope that my life breaks that mold and that i'm truly different from that idea. i don't want to be fake, i want to be genuine. i don't want to be cliche and dorky, i want to be real. i don't want to hide my true thoughts on life because i might offend someone...... i want people to hear and know Truth.
i really need to get away for a little bit. i think i'm going to go swim... i'd love to go ride my bike... but i need to get the tires and chain changed... they're in rough shape.
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