humble boldness

why is it that i always seem to find myself in these situations? why can't i just be bold and stick up for myself.

this guy in my class won't leave me alone... i want to be nice to him and not make a big deal out of all of this. but i'm not ok with the way he treats me. he's beyond perverted, won't respect me, and bugs me to go do stuff with him. some how i've got to slip away from this messed up "friendship."

i need to learn how to be bold with people. i'm in so many situations where i need to talk to people and be bold with them, but i'm terrified. it never comes out right, what's in my head never translates the way i want it to.

there's a highschool girl i want so badly to help... well there's a couple of them... but i don't want to be like their parents. i don't want to just point out the negative... i don't feel like i have that kind of credibility or relationship with them. one of the girls is bisexual, the other just got into a relationship and i fear she'll make the same mistakes i made. i wish someone had helped me when i was their age... maybe then my mind wouldn't be so perverse.

i started singing with my church recently. i was actually very excited to start, but i've found myself in the same situation with singing in churches i've always been in. why is it so hard to stop focusing on the sound and performance and focus on God? this was the very reason i didn't want sing in the band. i've yet to see it done right, or close to it. so now i'm in the perfect position to say something. i told him when he asked me to sing for him that i had been hurt and just didn't want to jump back into it. but i realized that i was holding onto a grudge and just needed to let go. so i did... and now i kind of wish i hadn't. so i have the perfect opportunity to say something... i just don't know how.



so i'm hitting my infamous midsemester slump where i just don't care and i want to give up. i'm losing my momentum... these are going to be the longest 15 credit hours of my life.