so i finally was able to watch the silly thing for school. the dude talked so fast. i must have rewound it about 15 times and paused it i don't know know how many times. after a lil while i gave up and just watched. it was more of a show than actual teaching... i wonder if CPCC realizes that? i really only have one question in regards to this class... why is it so easy to believe and accept this history, yet so hard to believe the history of Jesus Christ?
i need you guys to pray for me. i'm really getting self-concious. it's so retarded. i know it's wrong to not eat to lose weight, and it's wrong to throw up (not saying i do either one) after eating, but i can't tell you how many times i was tempted to skip a meal today. it was actually really scary. i have never been that tempted before. but this is how it's always been. whenever a new semester starts, some kind of drama starts. it's just life. i can't seem to ever fully focus on school. i mean i gave up band and other things so i could focus on school this summer! *sigh* i will not let myself be distracted. i will not sink so low as to let the world's approval be my joy. i know that it is only in Christ Jesus that i am happy and fulfilled. i know that only in Him that i see ME, not the physical me. He makes me come alive. i want Him to make me alive...
my camera is officially dead. so begins the saving of moola for a pretty little camera. my mommy is going to let me use her nice camera for my photography class this fall. it's old fashioned. an actual real film and manual setting camera. i'm excited. i've played with it some before, but it will be great fun to actually get to play with it for a long time!
i got the new Jack Johnson CD... it's amazing. it makes me smile cause it makes me think of the beach... WHICH REMINDS ME! today as i was walking into cpcc for classes i saw 2 little Sand Pipers!! those lil birds are only supposed to be at the beach! and the best part is, besides the fact that they were right in front me, is that they are one of my favorite birds :) i love going to the beach and watching them run along the beach. it's so cute. so there they were, just chillin, and chirping, and there i stood smiling. *thanks God*
my friends and i are planning a road trip. we want to leave at 3ish in the morning or earlier and drive to the beach to watch the sunrise, then stay and watch the sunset then drive home... talk about an amazing and exausting day! we want to do it friday... but uh... yeah looks like one of us won't be able to go, and we refuse to go without all 4 of us.
well... that was a fun recap. now it's late, and i have to wake up early for work (730ish). oh yeah, tomorrow i am going to the doctor to get a stupid mole removed from my forehead. it's been there since i was very little. it used to be sort of a self-concious thing, but now i don't even notice it. but lately i've been hitting it and i'm freakin paraniod i'm going to like scratch it off my head. that'd be sick. so i leave you, my friends, with that amazing visual :)
g'night!
Kendall
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