tattoo...

i just realized i never told how the whole tattoo situation ended.

so i got my tattoo, obviously, and it all worked out beautifully. i was so scared my family would reject my desire to get it. but in the end, they all came to support me. literally :D my mom, dad, sister, best friend (Josh), all came and watched and tried to make me laugh as i held back tears of pain and pure bliss. my brother was the only one who couldn't make it. he couldn't get out of work and was kicking himself because he missed it. i'm just so thankful for the family i have and the few really amazing friends i have.

i'm excited for my next one, i honestly don't think i'll get many more. i'd like to get a pseudo quarter sleeve. i would love to some how figure out a way to include all these things into one cohesive fluid sleeve: two ravens, one alive and one dead. a koi fish. something Charlotte related, preferably the skyline. the reference to the passage Matthew 22:36-40. and i think there were a couple other things but that's all i can think of at the moment considering it's 1am and i'm exhausted.

but these are all just ideas. i KNOW i want the ravens, i just have to figure out how to do them in a soft feminine way yet be harsh and make a statement like i want.


*sigh* but first i have to get money. hahaha...




random:

i'm going to try to find a giant piece of thick solid colored fabric and go out somewhere i can get paint everywhere and turn it into a giant piece of art. and expression of my inner feelings. and then, i want to burn it. i want to write out all my feelings, paint out all my emotions, tear away the lies... and watch them burn away. like an ex-boyfriends love letter. watch all the memories fade away and then breath a heavy sigh of freedom.