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School has started yet again. there's always a bitter sweetness to it. i like being busy, having things to do, but sometimes i need a break... that and i get bored easy. for now this is new and interesting... new people, new buildings, new things to learn about. but after a while it all gets so redundant and irritating.

I started going to Elevation Church last Sunday. i seriously am loving this church. of course there are things that are a little ridiculous. but i know that my perfect church doesn't exist. thankfully the things that are a little silly aren't big enough to ruin the church for me. I've grown so much spiritually already through this church. I've been listening a lot to their online sermons. it's so refreshing to finally be in a church where i feel challenged and encouraged and humbled and most of all, excited to come to.

i got a job at Lucky Brand Jeans a week ago ^_^ I'm way stoked. seriously, i think I'm REALLY going to love this job. my manager is one of the worship pastors at Warehouse 242 Church downtown, so needless to say, that's amazing. it's going to be so nice to finally work with a solid Christian. all my co-workers are really sweet too. i haven't had a REAL official work day yet, but I've come in for a store meeting and tomorrow i go in for training. it'll just be nice to finally work somewhere i fit.

I'm so ready for my tattoos. i almost feel weird not having them. I've checked out a lot of artists and I've almost had it done twice by two different guys. but i kept backing out. i finally have decided on Skinny down at Ace Custom Tattoo. not only have i heard SOOOO many good things about him, but according to one of his good friends who's a good friend of mine, he's been pseudo seeking spiritually and me getting my tattoos from him would be a huge witness. that's reason enough for me. both of my tattoos scream Christ. I'm beyond excited and ready.





i hope i don't come across as cliche or fake.






sometimes when i see people, i want to stop them and ask them what they're thinking. it's just strange to me. sometimes i can't see how people couldn't believe in Christianity. but i guess it's just because I'm starting to really get it all. life would seem so empty and meaningless. my heart and mind has changed so much recently. things i used to think were ok, just don't seem right anymore. it's so strange.




Despite all this, I'm lonely. and not even in the sense that I'm really wanting a boyfriend. sure that'd be nice and all, but that's not it. he wouldn't be able to really fulfill all my needs... i just hate doing things alone. i miss going on random road trips, i miss the late nights, i miss going cliff diving, i miss walking around the city of Charlotte...... i hope and pray as i continue to go to Elevation, I'll get involved and meet new people and find a core group of friends again. :/

so life is good. I'm just a little bit lonely.