so yesterday/last night was probably one of the crappiest days/nights i've had in a long time. no need to go into vast explinations on it all, cause it's really just not necessary. but yeah... today started to be pretty blegh too, then i went out with "the 4" (minus 1) and it was freakin awesome. they knew i had had some pretty bad baggage in my life, but they didn't know to what extent. tonight i pretty much opened up and told them most if not everything. i have never been so embarrassed and yet felt so ok with everything at the same time. it was like for once in my life, i really felt accepted. it was like i needed that to fully feel like i was "healed". you know? i was just scared... i felt like if anyone heard that stuff about me they'd immediately go "oh my goodness... she's such a ___" and yeah, that freakin sucks. but it was so healing to know that i could share that, and they didn't see me as any different. so today turned out to be pretty darn good. i've learned a lot about myself within these past couple months.... heck... i've learned more stuff than i can count over this whole year. i feel like i'm a new person. i def. don't feel like i am the same person i was back this time last year! it's amazing! i loooove who i am now.
*happy sigh* life is good. i'm content. i have FREAKING AWESOME friends.
yay
in Christ always and forever,
Kendall
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