God has been teaching me a lot lately. i hate that it's this way, but all my bad qualities i've seen in others around me. which is bad, cause it sucks for them, but it's helped me to actually see how i'm appearing to others. and quite frankly, that type of attitude/behavior is just not attractive. i feel like i'm finally getting out of this dang ditch i've dug myself into. i'm just tired of my old behaviors...
i want to:
make better grades
be more spontaneous
face my fears
not stress so much
control my thoughts
learn to be content
work out more
go to bed earlier (yeah, i say that as i sit here typing this at 1:37am)
and most of all, grow closer to God... read the bible more, spend more quality time in prayer, join a small group... etc...
i'm excited for this new semester. i'm ready for the new year. i'm ready for a new me. i just don't like who i am right now. i feel lame and silly and like i'm slipping back into my old ways. i ran from so much back in Columbia, and i need to leave it all there. i just can't compromise my beliefs anymore.
anyways. new years should be... well... i have no idea what's going to happen. i mean i have a couple options, i just don't know exactly what will happen... there are some things we need to work out.
also... Kenna and The Old Ceremony are quickly becoming 2 of my favorite bands.
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