i hate these moments in my life. i hate seeing the valleys in the midst of mountain tops. i wish i knew how to control my mind, but it likes to focus on what it can't have. i wish i could learn from my mistakes. sometimes, i just want to be alone... but then i'd be running from my problems. and it's not that these things that i don't/can't have are the problems... it's my attitude. i have a very poopy attitude right now.
i'm just trying to grow up too fast. i just hate the typical 19 year old girl. i don't want to be her! she's everything i'm running from. don't get me wrong, i still want to have fun and be silly and live life, i just don't want to be dumb.
that's it! i can't handle this anymore! i'm not running, i'm just letting go. it's to hard and too painful to worry about this all of the time. *sigh* again, this is why i want my sparrow tattoo. i forget so easily how much God loves me and cares for me and is never going to let anything happen that i can't handle. he loves me, he planned on me, he wants me, he made it possible for me to love him back, why can't i see that!? why can't i just love him and be loved? why can't i just let go and be done?! ohgdhor'fghiogdfidgfhiogfdiofgdio''hdiof
i'm done!
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Kendall, Although I'm not a 19 year girl - I feel the same way many times. I find the verses below invite me back to the Lord when I feel I've fallen away from HIm. I hope this helps!! God bless you, Christian.
28"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.
29"Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS.
Matthew 11:27-29
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