have you ever tried to chase a sunset? it's fun, but not easy.
i keep having nightmares. almost every single night for a while now i've been having nightmares and i'm not sure why. i haven't watched anything that could cause it. i don't know...
but i hate school. yeah yeah i know... i go back and forth saying whether i like being in school or not. i'm just tired you know? i want a break. i think i'd be content just working and not doing school for the summer, but i don't really have that choice. i've had to end up missing 2ish days of work now because of school. not so sure what to do about that. the good news is that i'm just working for my mom, so i can do this if i need to. my parents are way paranoid i'm going to screw up again this semester. sometimes i really just wish i could live my life with out them telling me what to do. i realized last night that all my life i've grown up being told what to do, where to be, and what to believe and have never questioned it. i'm not saying i don't believe in God or anything like that... but i don't know... i just started thinking about the way i've been raised and i don't know how i feel about it all. like my curfew for example. why can't you let me just stay out. at CIU i'd be able to stay out (at least 'til 2am). i'm just a night person. i like staying out at night it's a lot of fun. but i'm just ranting and raving so i'm going to stop. my arms ache and i'm sick of nightmares and confused thoughts and wishing and wanting and just AGH. i need to get this crappy homework done and just go sit and read the bible. i know that will help me. it has and always will.
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